Entry for September 03, 2007
I just wanted to thank you all for praying and most especially the ones who emailed to tell me you were praying for Fatima. She was given two weeks. She lasted two months.
I think most of us have grieved with her already--meaning before she took her final breath. No one wanted her to continue suffering. When I went public and asked for prayers for peace for her I stopped praying. Not because I stopped believing in the power of prayer but because I believe in and pray for miracles. Fatima had asked me to stop praying for miracles.
It took a couple of weeks but I caught myself every time I got ready to pray and every time that I looked at her. Then I began to accept.
I was recently talking to Chickie, Fatima's oldest about the reason why her mom was hanging on. I told her that I believed it would be until everyone that loved her would be able to accept that she had suffered enough and that wanting her to remain here would be a selfish prayer.
In the last few days I believe that happened. So again thank you for your prayers.
The picture I'm posting is of Fatima, Chickie, Edwin and Jasmine, Chickie's two children. It was taken last year at my sister's home.
I want to leave you with this thought: Our loved ones are never forgotten. Billy had a dream about my cousin a few years back. Ora Lee. He dreamt that she was drinking a beer, smoking and partying and he asked her how could she do all of these things since she was dead. She said, Just because I'm dead doesn't mean I can't have fun.
So I'm thinking that right now Fatima is laughing partying and having a ball. And she's having some cheesecake right about now.